and to be honest

To be honest
I didnt really move on
Because i still miss you
And hoping that things
Will back as it used to

It wasnt easy you know
All these time
I just pretending that i was okay
Well, most of it
I just forgot
Whenever im around people

But then i was alone
All those thought
All those feeling
It just creeping back
And i try so hard to block it
To forget it
But i couldnt

And the thing is
I couldnt bear myself
Forgetting you
Forgetting us
Forgetting what we used to be

Re-read those all text
Was the only escape i had now
To let all those missing go
Well part of it
And to remind me
How great our friendship was use to

To be honest
I am still wondering
What really happen?
That these thing happen
That we grew apart
And the answer was with you
And there was nothing i could do

I miss you
And i wish you were here
Because to be honest
You the only guy
That i totally comfortable with
Like i could say anything that i want to you
Be mean or whatever
Shared secrets and hopes and dreams
Having an argument that none of us win

And i was wondering..
Am i zing to you?
Or are you the one for me?
Are we even meant to be together?

And to be honest
No matter what happen
And even if we were never meant to be
I wish you well in everything you do
And i was glad that i met a person like you
To have an opportunity to be your friend
And I will cherish every moment i had with you
Never will i forget about you, about us
Forever will you be my only 'pentol'