Waiting

I guess there will always be a part of me

That waiting for you to come back

That waiting for you to say

All those right word

All those word that I've been longing to hear

I never hate you

Despite everything you do

You make me cry

You hurt me

You broke me

You punch my heart

I miss you a lot

And i wanted you to be here

By my side

Like you used to

I guess i develop

Some hatred

Towards you

To block all those 

Missing and longing you

I want to move on

I want to let go of you

Of these feelings

I want to start over

And this time

Without you

But tell me

How could i move on

When i felt in love with you?

I make myself hating you

Hating everything about you

Hating everything that you do

And i block you from my life

Even sometime

The memories flashing back

But i remain strong

and heartless

Ignore and being fine again

But i wasn't fine

I never were these day

I just wear my fake smile

And pretend everythings okay

When it was nothing close to okay

Because you to the best of me with you

And i was lost and so broken inside

That the devil inside of me

Took over me

Im tired of waiting for you

But i know deep down inside me

I am

Waiting for you...