Surrender

We met again this time after quite sometime
We talked, not long but just enough
You said what need to be said
And i said what you need to hear

You just got back from a holiday
And i am glad that you had fun, that you were okay
You talked about your day and experience
Seeing you so happy and eager makes me happy too

Along the way, we talked about the things that happen before
Pick up where we had left behind
Asking of the things that still had a question mark
Carefully answering to not hurt each other again

Of course the things that kept linger in my head is a big why
You told me you had a domestic problem
And you told me you would explain it later
Ask me to trust you

The thing is i do trust you
You could tell me that you have been abduct by alien
And i would still believe you
But domestic? What's that even mean?

For me it's very low to blame it on your problem
When the problem is just you
I had problem too but never do i blame on it
Hell, never do i using it to hurt people

The worst thing of it all is that you remind me about that 'BPR'
It was as if a post-it word Meredith and Derek used
Honestly, I flattered that you remember
But, you told me that i forgot to say it?

The thing is I am a typical women who remember lots of things
It just that I do not know which one did you remember
So I used the obvious one, the one that you won't ever forget
But you remember that one and it is fine by me

As we talked I realize how fucked we are
We were like two broken soul that try to mend each other
It was easy actually, you just need to convince me
But you are a guy who make the easy things look hard and complicated

I realize that it was all our fault actually
I get too clingy and you get a cold feel
We both love the fantasy of us but the reality is it is more complicated
We both try hard not to ruin it but we end up destroy it

The night gets darker and the street getting more quite
We parted and go on our own separate ways
I desperately wanted to say that i will wait for you
That i will always be here if you need anything

But i let it pass and hold my tongue
And let you think that i move on
Even though you the one who's in my heart
And i always love you, always will be