Thank you

I thought that I be okay now.
That I moving on.
But I wasn't okay.
I miss you. A lot.
And of those thing we talk.
All those time we spent together.
I miss having you right beside me.

How can things be like this?
How can it be so difficult and hard?
How could it get so intense and hurt?
Why does it had to end this way?
Why does everything need to be like this?
Why you had to leave?

I could ask thousand and thousand of questions.
But none will ever be answer.
And I be left hanging with the thoughts.
Wondering around as if I lose my mind.
Maybe I was.
I already am losing myself when I lose you.
Losing mind just half of it.

But you know what keep me smile and laugh?
You. And that crazy conversation we had.
I never thought I ever talk about these thing with someone.
I never thought I ever had this deeper conversation with.
Talk about the future, hopes and dreams.
Include with the marriage, job, kids and getting old together.

But you know the best thing of it all?
Was that I glad I talked it all with you.
So thank you.
Thanks for everything.
Thanks for making me smile.
Even when we are no longer together.
Thank you old friend.